SiGhZ...... my 1st time starting of the blog start with sighz huh...... well...... things tt i dun wan to happen.... or even dun even expect to happen wan has already happen..... 3yr 2mth++ has come to an end.... wat to do?? she can't accept my religion into her life..... i grow up in this environment.... with ppl inside here since i was small... and i have to decide between her or my religion..... i love her very much.... but i cant leave my religion becos of her... becos it like my family.... i cant leave my family am i rite?? so i let her made her own decision..... but still she cant..... maybe tt's the way fate wan us to be ba....
haiz..... everything juz flashes pass my mind..... from the time i dunno her... which i saw her in the irc when she was onli 15 till yest.... who is still my gf.... at 1st i tot "yea... she can accept my religion... she's willing to come and pray... mum is happy with her... everything is fine..." but gd things nv last..... when she began to tell mi she doesnt wanna come... i ask her y.. she say tired of not feeling well... fine.... but not long... she juz say she dun wanna come... my mum gets kinda upset y she didnt appear.. i tried to cover up for her... but i fsiled... mum kinda noe she doesnt wan to come.. i ask her y.... y in the past she willing to come but now like this.... she juz answer mi... last time also dun like to come wan... but juz come for the sake of coming.... upon hearing this.... i almost went crazy.... i was all WRONG!! ALL WRONG!! things aren't goin fine at all....... she didnt even accept my religion into her life at all.... it all went wrong... terribly WRONG!! i dun wan things to get worse... if i make her come.... my mum will be happy... but not her.... if i let her have her way of not coming... mum will be upset... either situation i'm still the wan suffering... BUT Y?!?!?! does it have to go this way?? so now i have no choice... i let her decide.... but still she say she cant accept it.... and i'm left with no choice... we had to part... we had to go our own way from now on...
well.. she may not be mine now.... and i dont have to be sad.... i should be happy for her... i'm not a gd bf either... and wat's more i'm onli her 1st.... who noes?? maybe in times to come.. she'll find another guy who's sooooo much more better than mi?? who can take care of her much more better than mi... so i shall not be sad... i have to give her my best wishes... hoping some1 who is truely for her will appear.... and last but not least.... thankz for being my gf for the past 3yrs 2mth+ times... thanks for tolerating all my ribbish.... may u had a better and merrier life ahead of u..... *best wishes*
