haiz... juz reached home... well.... had a rather stupid day today.... in the morning... i feel my head so heavy.... heavy and giddy... i watches it gets worse and worse day by day.. juz like watching a child grow like tt.. until today.... i really cannot ta han laioz.. so i decided to go and see the M.O again.... well well well... when i go down... i saw 1 big whiteboard there.. it states tt.... M.O will not be arnd until 11am..... so lan lan i go back office lah..... then i called up the Medical Centre to check later the M.O will see come back anot.. he say no.... tt means no M.O to see... so i called up my staff sgt... he say he'll arrange a vehicle for mi to send mi down to nee soon camp to see M.O....

at nee soon camp... waited for quite awhile to see the M.O so i tell him my problem... then he alot sia... scarli later he say... "i've nv encounter ur case b4.. i give u some painkiller... u go outside see doc k?" wah lau ehh!! u M.O lehz... then use this as excuse... sian lor... so lan lan... juz now book out... came home bath and wentdown to jurong polyclinic to see doc with PL.... quite a quene there... then see the doc.. he say my blood pressure is abit too high for my age... haha... so he give mi mc till thurs... then next wed go back again... after tt took my medicine then send PL home....

feeling damn sick again at yishun.. so i sat down.... and let my brain relax abit.... then slowly walk to yishun 10... see ppl play arcade... and tok abit on the phone with PL lah.... then as it was quite late laioz... so the best also reach batok quite fast... but once again i feel sick again... feel like vomiting... and head is spinning like no need money... slowly make my way back home... and finally blogging here....

juz suddenly alot of things flashes in my mind.... i tink of my childhood... the time i used to play toy soldier with my dad.. which is so fun in the past... my pri sch life... always playing cathing with my fren during recess.. catch spider... go walk arnd see iguana... haha... then sec sch time.. noe my best buddies... ppl like qiwei and matthew... and my YG frens.. like CR... wendy and so on... and fianlly my army life now.. i feel tt... myl ife is so in vain... yes.. vain.... i didnt do anything much for them arnd mi... i'm like juz wasting my life away... haiz... juz had this cold feeling... "he's" getting closer to mi day by day.... step by step.... when will he swing his death scythe against mi? and i can finally go with him.... when.... i really wonder.... there isnt much time left... haha...