haiz...... y is it so UNFAIR?!?!?! i really cannot take it le!!!!!! 1st...... i went back for my appointment on wed..... the doc say my pressure still so high... so he got mi a referral letter to alexandra hospital..... oh great.... i'm goin to hospital... the part which i fear to come the most had happen.... now awaiting for appointment.... then nvm... today i'm on MC to stay at home... but my officer say... camp there got some confusion over my MC on 2nd feb... so i had to go back camp to verify everything.... after it's done... at arnd 2+ i left my camp.... i went down to JP to play game... well not bad.... ppl challenge mi.. out of 3 rnd i won 2... after i lost 1 rnd i left laioz... cos i meeting PL at 4pm at dover... at arnd 3:50 i reach there... she havent release lah.. so wait down there lor.. then the weather so fucking hot lor... sit down also can sweat... then at 4:10 - 4:15 she and her fren reach le.... but her fren nv join us lah... we took the train to Marina Bay then change to go to Yishun.... we didnt tok much along the way also lah.... she's not feeling well so no mood to tok.. then got this bunch of arsehole! so damn noisy.. all standing arnd each other onli... then tok muz shout like tt... their noise is causing my headache to get worse lor... i wanted to stand up to shout them to diam wan... but 4get it lah... i'm too weak to do so.... and no mood too.... after tt at Yishun... we alighted... she went home... and i went to northpoint walk abit... then take 852 home... along the way.. feel so tired and fall asleep... then come home for diiner... eat porridge... at 9+ went down to CR house to play Need For Speed Underground2.... not bad.. unlock quite a few stuff... then will playing got chat with PL... today chat until not bad.. it's being so long since i last chat on phone and can luff until tears almost roll out de... haha... thank PL.. u really did cheered mi up.... then the sad part came.... at 11:15 my bro sms mi.... my tt Siao father dunno do wat fuck? come back make noise... then say if i by 11:30 nv reach home he'll interlock the doors and dun let mi come back... then suck lor... i faster come back.. dunno wat is he doing now? sincel ast nite crazy until now.... he sudden accuse mi watch pron... wth?! nvm.... say i use my bro prepaid acrd to make call until no money den return... shitl or.. i got line i dun use i use his for wat? somemore i onli used him 4 sms tt time.. when my phone no batt.... then he still open my letter... where's my privacy?!?! fine... he dun respect mi... i shall not respect him too.... this sun he celebrating his b'day.. i'm not goin man! go fuck urself OLD MAN! this is not my home.... i hate it.... my hone dun treat mi this way... i'm juz a outcast anyway... alien to everybody.... i'm juz so sad... so sad... i feel broken and unwanted..... haiz~~ y muz this always happens to mi??? i hate it......................
HAPPY VALENTINE DAY for all those loving couples in the world... maybe abit late lah.. but nvm lah... got wish can le lor..... well.... this yr.... i nv celebrate v day lah.... no need to ask y lah hor... it's very obvious rite?? lolx well..... but 1st time i feel so strongly during v day sia.......
as i book out from my camp today...... along the way to yishun mrt station.... i went walk walk arnd..... and i can see ppl selling roses everywhere... guys holding roses in their hands... waiting for their gf or some are with their gf.... i can really feel the love in the air as i watches them walking pass mi..... but at the same time... i feel so outcasted.... lolx... maybe i tink too much ba... but really envy those who are in their own world of love... hmmm then i start to wonder to myself.... y i've nv feel this b4? is it becos i've nv appreciate it when i have the chance to do so?? i also dunno... as i walk down... i feel down and sad... lolx... stupid rite?? so i start to wonder arnd wherever my heart feels like taking mi to.... i've been to so many places today.... all by myself... and see couples everywhere... really everywhere.... haha.... i went to north point..... Orchard...... Westmall..... Tampines Mall.... and even down to Pasir Ris park... nobody noes i've been to so many places in 1 day.... i juz feel so sad.... i dunno y... but 1 thing is for sure... i hate tt feeling... yea man.... the feeling of...... being left alone? or being alone? i dunno.... i wonder where is the loner mi which i used to have? where did he go?? after all these times of having accompany i've lost him? had he left mi silently?? i also dunno... i juz sat quietly at the beach and lots and lots of memories flashes in my mind..... gd or bad.... they all are juz so sweet.... becos i noe..... they cannot happen again... nv again.... wat's gone is gone... wat's done is done.... time will nv turn its head arnd juz for u.... i can onli choose to walk on... juz feel tt today sitting down there really made mi tinks or maybe i should say flashback alot for mi... maybe all this is fated... fated tt i have to be played by fate.... everything juz wont go the way i wanted.... i hve to suffer failure and disappointment thru out..... tink tt's wat my life wans mi to have ba... haiz.... wan to find a fren out to chat also so hard..... either in army... or bz keeping their gf accompany... but i understand lah... today is V day lehz... of cos u have to keep ur love one accompany lah..... so no worry my frens for those i've tried to find but not free to come out wan... i'm fine... i tink so.... ^^ as for those who dun have gf or bf wan... hope u'll find urs soon... hopefully the v day on yr 2006 will be a nice and memorable wan for u..... to mi.. the wan i had today is both memorable... as well as a painful wan.... well.. wat can i say?? i deserve it.. tt's all i noe.... lastly... may all ur guys who have bf and gf wan.... may ur love bloom well... and blessing upon u guys... take care... ^^
hmmm back to blog again le.. haha.... well.... 2nd day of new yr.... still nth much happen lah... lolx... morning wake up.... at 10++ then nv eat breakfast... cos dunno y.. still dun have the kind of mood to eat anything lah... after tt bath and went down to my father's aunt house... well... i hate tt place.. y? becos tt place all the ppl i dunno de... then nobody to tok to... in the past few yrs.. we always spend so many hours down there waiting for my aunt and uncles all to reach there then we'll move on the my grandpa house.. but after we complaint alot.. my mum and dad decided tt this yr.. we'll go there for awhile onli.. really awhile.. less than half and hour leave there le.. so happy sia... LOLX!!! after tt we walk down to my grandpa house..when we reach there my 2 aunt and 2 uncles already there le... we're the latest... lolx... play with my small cousin.. he's grown up so much and cute.. lolx... then went into my uncle room to play x-box.. then CR came to my grandpa house to meet mi... in the evening my parents decided to move off to my another aunt's house.. but i didnt tag along... cos there is boring too... hehe... :P over 21 yr old le can choose not to go.. hehe... after tt went down to Bukit Panjang Plaza to see see walk walk... hmm there is so dead... lolx.. after awhile went down to AMK to meet up with PL.... wanted to watch movie at Junction 8... wanted to watch Constantine... but sadly.. all was fully booked... then nvm.. we went down to Sun Plaza to watch.... same the Constantine was almost fully sold out.. onli left 1st row.. of cos i wont wan to sit at the 1st row wat.. so we change to watch the 9:30 Sqeoul Raider... k lah.. the show not bad lah... but i still prefer last time de Tokyo Raider... cos got Ekin mah... hoho.. after the show went to mac to eat... then over there i saw her... yes.. her.... REBECCA..... she came in to say hi to PL... then PL ask her... she noe who is mi anot... she say no.. PL tell her my name.. she onli say find it familiar onli.... and i was so HAPPY!! YES!!! YES!!! she dun remember mi lor!!!! HOHOHOHOHOHO!!!! then after she left.. i finished my food... we took bus back to yishun... send PL home... after tt i was so lazy to go down to train station... so i took cab home.... after tt... sleep.... lolx :P hmm today like nth much lehz... tml got guard duty le... so damn SIAN!!!!
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YR!!!! well.... i'm ain't tt happy anyway.. but juz say for the sake of saying..... well.. didnt had a gd new yr tt's all.... last nite new yr eve..... well..... got the same yr end prayer need to do.... then got chat with PL on the phone.... well... not a nice chat..... maybe after today no longer will be in contact with her liaoz lor..... today most likely will be the last time meeting her... since today is her b'day... amybe we'll go for a movie ba.... after tt....... wat will happen............. i dunno~~ even tonite will meet anot i also dunno...... haiz~~ ppl all enjoying new yr..... but for mi..... no~~~ becos i'm sick.. yea SICK!!! down with the stupid FLU after gion out yesterday.... really suay sia... fancy getting flu on the eve of new yr.... lolx... nv so suay b4 sia..... 4get it lah..... maybe this yr isnt for mi..... i may even not survive thru this yr also...... so i dun bother much also.... haha...... but at least there is something i'm happy with lah.... wat else? of cos is the ANG BAO lah!!! lolx.. kinda had alot of chit chat with my cousins.... really enjoy company with them... in fact i should treasure this chance to meet up with them... cos i nv noe next yr i still can meet up with them again during this time of the yr next yr..... haiz.... all i can say is...... i will treasure everything i have now.. thou i have nth left....... becos i nv noe when i'll leave.... hmm..... maybe i'll be leaving this place soon? i also dunno..... i'm so tired.................... haiz~~
haiz~~ again so long nv blog de.. dunno y... now recently i hardly can find anything to blog sia... maybe becos i'm still down with the bloody headache ba... haiz~~ hmm let's see wat can i blog.... hmm... nth much lah..... onli can rememeber..... sunday.... meet up with PL and her sis in the noon at abt 5pm at causeway point... they say wanna go take pic.. those neoprint type de lah... then i went down lor.... ok lah... we took a few shots..... i find it ok lah.. but PL not satified... she say next time go take again... haiz.... 1st time i feel tt taking pics hao lei wor.... lolx.... but anything lah.... ppl like can le lor... lolx :P then after tt we took train back... as she and her sis is goin down to clementi to her uncle house for some kind of reunion dinner... then on train we saw this small boy.. he da bao mac home.. then inside train he eat sia... then i disturb disturb.. make sound effect lah... ka jiao him eat burger lah... then we're all laughing away.. lolx... then reach batok... meet up with my sister and her bf.. we go to collect our cake.. as we're gonna celebrate our mum's b'day... lolx... after dinner outside we come back.. had the cake and called it a day.. then today... monday... went back to camp.... got CO parade... after tt the whole battalion got half day off... 11:30 can book out... then have to reach serangoon garden country club tt Jumbo seafood restuarant for lunch... not really nice tot... alot of ppl... not enuff food.. see my fren all eat until so sad... lolx... i didnt eat anyway.. juz busy chatting away with my frens and officers... after the lunch... went down to parklane play game.... played CS with my sgt... kns.. ppl pro hor.. happy happy headshot mi... kns... then CR came... we went to play Midnight maximum tune.... at parklane and at P.S... at PS so funny... got this uncle... he got a C class Skyline.... i wan to challenge him.. but he off it.. kns... then when i played half way... he challenge mi.... kns lor.. ppl tt car got name wan lehz... The Silver Z... it's 2 class above mi de car lehz... i onli A+ class.. then he challenge mi... so sad... had a rather firece battle... haiz... then i nthe end... haiz.... I WON!!! LOLX!!! he hao lian lah.. tot my car lousy lousy can bully.. in the end xia suay himself... lost to a lousy A+ class onli car... lolx.... den after tt went to my grandpa house to collect my bag... had my dinner there. instant noodle... then left there at arnd 10p.m then CR come my house.. we played our SOny Ericsson phone.. ppl buy K700i lehz... envy sia... i wanna get T630 onli... after new yr see how ba... then after tt nth much le.... feeling damn sick now.... gonna sleep soon le... wait till got anything happening again den blog ba... and hereby i wish every1....
HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!!! may all ur wishes come true...my onli wish now is ti recover soon... haiz.... wonder when i'll die..... haiz~~
hmmm almost 1 wk nv blog le... even thou i nv blog... my blogspot is still so happening.. all thankz to those few COCKSTERS! who tryiing to kick up a fuss here... i dun ask for anybody to come in and see my blog in the 1st place... if u wan to come in.. u see and fuck off! nobody ask for ur cock comments from ur tiny cock brain!
well.. enuff of those cocksters... well... this week nth much happen lah.. juz those stand daily routine.. in camp.. do this and tt lor... nth to blog also....hmmm...... then juz say today wan ba... lolx.... today morning overslept... sleep until 6:15 sia... then faster rush back to camp.. book in late... lolx... but nvm.... officers not there yet... hehe... after tt went up to bunk get change.. arnd 8++ after on phone with PL went down to office.. the whole office onli mi and 2 more men onli... lolx... so sad... the rest went for deployment exercise... then in noon at 12 i left my camp.... got medical appointment at jurong polyclinic... b4 i went over to polyclinic... i was at np walk walk... walk horse see flower... lolx.... then had my lunch there.... eat fried rice... quite fuck up lah... worse fried rice i ever had... and 1 bowl of desert.. hohoho... then PL came down to north point and meet mi.. then accompany her take bus to amk... she go to her grandma house there to meet her mum and went to see doc... after tt i went on to jurong polyclinic lor... quite shock lah... go in no ppl wan... so got to see the doc in a rather short time... doc check my pressure.. say still very high.. tt time was 165... not 159... like no diff.. -.-" then send mi to downstairs for eye test... the nurse say my left eyes quite ok.. onli right eyes abit more jialat onli.. then go back see the doc... he give mi 2 days mc.. till tml... then go back for appointment again in 2 weeks time.. he say if by then my pressure still cant drop.. i need to be send to hospital for observation le... haiz~~ then now eat the medicine laioz.. dunno watk ind of medicine lai de lor... eat laio... i feel feverish sia... haiz... nvm.. anyway got tml 1 day to rest... see tml how ba.... haiz~~~
