HAPPY VALENTINE DAY for all those loving couples in the world... maybe abit late lah.. but nvm lah... got wish can le lor..... well.... this yr.... i nv celebrate v day lah.... no need to ask y lah hor... it's very obvious rite?? lolx well..... but 1st time i feel so strongly during v day sia.......
as i book out from my camp today...... along the way to yishun mrt station.... i went walk walk arnd..... and i can see ppl selling roses everywhere... guys holding roses in their hands... waiting for their gf or some are with their gf.... i can really feel the love in the air as i watches them walking pass mi..... but at the same time... i feel so outcasted.... lolx... maybe i tink too much ba... but really envy those who are in their own world of love... hmmm then i start to wonder to myself.... y i've nv feel this b4? is it becos i've nv appreciate it when i have the chance to do so?? i also dunno... as i walk down... i feel down and sad... lolx... stupid rite?? so i start to wonder arnd wherever my heart feels like taking mi to.... i've been to so many places today.... all by myself... and see couples everywhere... really everywhere.... haha.... i went to north point..... Orchard...... Westmall..... Tampines Mall.... and even down to Pasir Ris park... nobody noes i've been to so many places in 1 day.... i juz feel so sad.... i dunno y... but 1 thing is for sure... i hate tt feeling... yea man.... the feeling of...... being left alone? or being alone? i dunno.... i wonder where is the loner mi which i used to have? where did he go?? after all these times of having accompany i've lost him? had he left mi silently?? i also dunno... i juz sat quietly at the beach and lots and lots of memories flashes in my mind..... gd or bad.... they all are juz so sweet.... becos i noe..... they cannot happen again... nv again.... wat's gone is gone... wat's done is done.... time will nv turn its head arnd juz for u.... i can onli choose to walk on... juz feel tt today sitting down there really made mi tinks or maybe i should say flashback alot for mi... maybe all this is fated... fated tt i have to be played by fate.... everything juz wont go the way i wanted.... i hve to suffer failure and disappointment thru out..... tink tt's wat my life wans mi to have ba... haiz.... wan to find a fren out to chat also so hard..... either in army... or bz keeping their gf accompany... but i understand lah... today is V day lehz... of cos u have to keep ur love one accompany lah..... so no worry my frens for those i've tried to find but not free to come out wan... i'm fine... i tink so.... ^^ as for those who dun have gf or bf wan... hope u'll find urs soon... hopefully the v day on yr 2006 will be a nice and memorable wan for u..... to mi.. the wan i had today is both memorable... as well as a painful wan.... well.. wat can i say?? i deserve it.. tt's all i noe.... lastly... may all ur guys who have bf and gf wan.... may ur love bloom well... and blessing upon u guys... take care... ^^
