hmmm being a few days didnt blog again le.... haiz..... no mood to blog ba.... guess my these few times de entries all rather sad ba..... how long has been being since i was last feeling happy? feeling being love? i cant remember... really cant remember le... is it tt so long ago?? of have i nv ever tried it b4?? i dunno....
these few days nth much happens... most of the time i juz sit and home.. looking at my phone... hoping to see her call... or at least a sms from her..... it did came..... in the sense tt.... tok time is getting shorter and shorter.... she say she need to study... i understand..... sms is getting lesser and lesser day by day..... she say her sms is using too much le.... i understand.... maybe becos i'm too free ba..... always do nth but wait.... and wait..... and wait.... wait till i sleep.... wake up... and no call or sms has been received.... disappointed... but keep quiet... muz spare a thought for her....
bing feeling tt something is wrong.... but i tell myself.... becos i tink too much ba.... tried to stop myself... but seems rather hard.... today went to fou tang.... dun even have the mood to listen to class.... juz walk arnd the building... she did called once.... thou it was short... but i'm happy... on the way home.. i didnt noe she is on the phone with my "best" fren.... he didnt tel mi anyway... ok i'm not some1 so big tt he need to tell mi who he chatting with... fine.... she called mi... but i didnt hear my phone ringing... ok my fault...
i reach home at 10+ i sms her say i'm back home le... well... she didnt call mi back... she called him.... fine.... it's he who she wanna tok to not mi... so wat can i say? ya... nth... juz suck thumb... today is the 1st time i feel so hurt.. so jealous.... more than i can take it... but tink back.... who am i? wat postion am i in to interfere so much? it's her life... she can do wat she wan... y should i put in so much? y? i tried to pull out.... it's hard... it's too deep... it hurts so much everytime i tried to pull... but todays pain is far too much for mi to take... she chat with mi for less than 20mins.... more than 30min with him... yea... i compared... so wat? i'm juz jealous... i'm numb now... so numb.... guess it's time.................
