haha.. i'm back home blogging le... actually nth much happens lah... juz tt now we've started to pack our stuff le... goin to shift over to the new block soon.. YEA!!! KING KOIL BED!! here i comes... haha... juz now had a rather fun mass conversation with all my sgWG frens... keke... we start a bo liao game of busoh... change all the movie's name to busoh something... keke... tt was so fun... nv had such fun online le... really thanks to those guys there... u guys ROX MAN!!! haha... and my mentor.... thankz for taking care of mi when i'm in this big family of sgWG.... ^^ i'm glad to have such a fun mentor like u.... haha.... after all those nonsense they start to left le.... ok lah... it's late le mah... australia there more late lah... haha.... then now come on to blog blog abit... haha feeling hungry.. so i made a cup of ice milo.... then out of nowhere suddenly tink of this drink called Milo Dinosaur... haha so i made 1 myself... ahha.... so sweet.. but nvm lah... long long time once nia mah... hehe.. now enjoying away with my milo dinosaur.. haha... hungry lehz... muz control.. cannot eat... fat le fat le... ARGH~!
hiyee!! keke... blogging in camp again le.... now better.. not use camp's lous com.... i using the LTA Adrian lappy.. hoho... better lehz... haha... yesterday nv blog lehz... si ehh sian... no time to blog also.. didnt go out or wat lah... juz rot at home.... yesterday at home got prayer... got 1 indian auntie come to my house and qiu dao... haha feel glad for her... she's already so old le... glad she can qiu dao in time... haha... she's my dad's fren lah... juz had a operation for her kneecap... she cant really walk or knee la... but you xin jiu hao mah rite?? haha... then spend some times chatting away with my sis's bf... haha.... then online chat awhile.. then at nite go back camp le... hehe... tml i on leave.... haha... juz feeling tired lah... cos last week really do alot of duty.... feel so tired mentally... hehe... should take a rest mah... k lah... nth much to write also... maybe later at nite will blog at home.... cya guys!! take care! ^-^V
haiz.... finally come back from Tian Hui le... today is such a tiring day.... this morning then book out from camp.... the stupid officer let mi wait so long then draw the office keys out... once i got the key.. i faster lock the doors and went up to pass the key to the SGT.. then i get wash up changed and faster book out le...reach home at 9+ rest awhile... then online check my stuff... went out at 1+ to meet WY and HL at Bt Panjang Plaza... took a few pics... haha... then left at 5+ to get home and change... mum da bao fried rice for mi for dinner.. thou i have cough but nvm lah... i love the fried rice... haha... then get chagned and went down to catch the bus to go tian hui... over there listen abit of lesson lah.... really very tired... haha... then now at home nth to do.. so blog blog abit... finally my this week of duties has come to an end le... phew.... tiring sia... i feel so tired metally and physically... and till now my cough is still bugging mi... so irritating.. hope i'll get well soon ya? haha... i got nobody to pray for mi... so i pray for myself.... sad.... haha... watever.... used to it le lah.... ^-^ k lah... i gtg le... should sleep early.... cos sick mah....and oh ya... i got my own photo album le... i'll link it at my links section.. do take a look if u wan to... it's free for all to see... ^-^V do take care huh... (tt's for mi hehe) and u guys as well too!! buaiz.... *sleepy head liaoz* -.-ZZZzzz...
haha.... 1st time do blogging in camp sia.... well... this week i've really been stuck in camp all the way sia... well... today noon come back to resume my duty from Jun Liang... thankz to him for helping mi to do my duty while i was away... haha... he also kinda sad lah... sunday still have to come back do duty i still ask him to replace mi... LOLX!!! i am evil!!! haha... well.. today didnt do really much in camp also as usual... LOLX!!! this noon LTA Danny came back camp sia... heard he got some job to finish up... so while he was doin his stuff.. i juz sit at the chair and lean on the table and sleep... i didnt noe i actually slept so long sia... from 3pm till 5.30pm.. wake up with my whole body numb... haha.... then went for dinner with Chong Sen... the dinner i didnt eat much lah.. cos its all spicy food.. and with cough i cannot take too spicy food or else tonite cannot sleep laioz.. haha... then now use the com in the OPS room t blog.. haha.. shiok sia.. but camp's network rather lag lah... haiz.. alot of site cannot go... sian... oh ya.. today met YY to have a chat... thanks for the keychain... it's nice... ^^ and i've successfully transform it into handphone accessory laioz... hohoho power hor... juz now had a little chat with PL... gald she's doing well also... every1 arnd mi are all doin fine... isnt tt great?! hehe... hope i can be doing fine 1 day again... k lah... kinda tired le... wanna sleep le.. *YaWnZ* nitez all! -.-ZZZzzz... may i sleep in peace tonite... haha...
finally back home le.... have been doin duties for the past few days.... haiz... it feel so sux.. ppl all clearing off... but i have to do duties... well... suan laioz... tml is the last day of duties for mi for this mth.... next week also got alot of duties.... SUX! last nite really spend the nite alone sia.... time seems to pass so slowly... but luckily the duty personnel in TA is my fren... so i went over to his office to watch tv.... slept at 2a.m last nite... due to the cough... which is happily getting worse everyday... then this morning book out juz b4 8a.m haha..... then took mrt back home.... when my train pass by yishun.. i saw PL... haha.. she was on the platform waiting for her fren to go work together... gave her a call... she say my voice sounds weird... haha cos i'm sick mah... but is it really tt weird? i also dunno lehz... then reach home at 9+ unpack my stuff... then online for awhile... then went to meet up with Marcus and went to pasir ris for the Battalion Retreat at Aloha Loyang... haha.. over there i was appointed to be the photographer.... ran arnd everywhere to take interesting photo... haha.... then really use run wan sia... then i follow my sir and run... run half way i suddenly feel a CRACK at my ankle... after tt i have problem walking laioz... the ankle seems to hurt alot... h,,, dunno wat's wrong also... walk like cripple... then my frens still luff at mi for walking like cripple... -.-" suan laioz... used to it liao lah..... had some bbq food and buffet... then i left the chalet with my medic laioz.... initially wanted to go home wan... but kinda sian... so i drop off at JP... bought some of my camp stuff... then went up to the arcade to have a game... well... had quite some nice challenge over there.... i have a total of 120 stars now.... is it alot? doubt so ba.... it's still so far from my standard.... i wan MORE! wat to do... since i have nth.. i onli have this game to accompany mi... all i wan is my car to get stronger everytime i play and get as much stars as i can along the way... thou i noe i sux in the game.. it's all tt i have in tt game... onli those stars can make mi smile tt little bit... haiz..... after the game went back home.. till now still habve problem walking... tml go for my physio then ask the doc wat happen ba..... sux... the stupid flu is still bugging mi... haiz..... feel so sian.. so numb.... where's every1 when i need some1 to tok... juz some 1... any1..... is it tt so hard?? haiz.....
hmmm today is vesak day ya? so have u guys gone out to tmple and pray?? haha well i didnt lah.. cos i got fou tang mah.. well.. sleep till 8 in the morning today.. didnt do much today.. go online and surf net and chat with frens... till noon.. chat with m fren on phone.. then fall alseep.. wake up wake LOTR.. then went back to sleep again at 3+ wake up at 5+ and online again... chat with frens again.. haha.. so no life rite? keep online and chat onli.. ah bo is see my maximum tune webbie... haha... then online till now lor... si bei sian... nth to blog also... tink i've change alot le... guess it's worse ba... haha... i also dunno.. k lah.. i goin back camp soon... this week gonna be damn bz with duties.. when i'm back hope i have soething to blog ya? kk all of ya take care ya? i'm still sick... -.-"
back from chalet le.... haiz..... not very enjoyable i'll say... cos the main prob is... i'm sick... ya.. down with running nose and cough.... let mi start from the 1st day ba.... went to bedok interchange the market there for lunch.... then we took cab to costa sand chalet.... check in.... the chalet was rather small i'll say.... much smaller than the wan at downtown east.... kinda sux... then the air con no power wan... wait so dman long for it to cool the room... then we put down our stuff... set up my mp3 player and speaker... then we on the music so damn loud.. and we sleep.... LOLX!!!! wake up at 6+ in the evening... went down to the beach..... sit down there enjoying the breeze with Matthew and Karen.... sat for awhile onli.... so many memories all rush thru all head... and i was like stun down there till Matt call mi..... haha... then we went to walk along the shore.... pick up some seashells which i find them so nice.... then went back to the chalet bare footed... haha.... then cook maggie mee to eat... then watch tv.... mid nite we watch Resident Evil 2.... but b4 the 1st disc finish i already fall asleep le... cos i really feel so sick.... but i die die have to check in.. cos i'm the authorised person.... 2nd day.. earlyi n the morning at 9:30a.m my phone rang... it's Shu Feng.... idiot sia... becos of her... 1 call... all 3 person wake up to open the door for her.... still nvm.... the 1st thing she come in she say... " i wan to sleep..." then we 3 person watch her 1 person sleep.... wth.... then in the noon we went to the market for lunch.... then came back and wait for Yun Hui's call to take the food from her and Si Mei.... and spend the whole noon bz preparing the food for the bbq at nite.... in the evening.. the guys start to come le... i help to start the fire.... and matt help mi after awhile knowing i'm sick... haha... then i went back to the chalet and sleep... hehe... but as more ppl come i cant sleep la.... cos too noisy.... i cant eat much thing also... so in the evening i went out of the chalet and went to the beach alone... and yea... i went to the big rock again and sit up there to listen to the sound of the wave... till arnd 11+ i went back again... and found out tt most of the guys have left.... i dun feel sad or wat.. cos i like have nth to tok to them also.... then at 12+ they go to ktv pub... i didnt go... with a few others... and again i went to the beach again... till 3+ in the morning.... slept at 4+ and wake up this morning at 10+ then found out we have no much time left.. as we have to check out by 10:30.... haha... then fast pack everything... at arnd 10:40 we left the chalet.... wait for the free shuttle bus to the bedok interchange... went to the market for breakfast.. then we all go back le... reac home at 1+ got prayer at home... after i prayer i drop dead on my bed and sleep le.... then at 3+ went down to Suntec to have a few games.... kinda sux today.... every1 is aiming mi..they keep banging mi... haiz... then went walking arnd... after tt went down to esplande there to sit and enjoy the breeze again... left there at 10:40 like tt... took 77 back home.... haiz... wat a day.... feel so tired... feel so lonely at times too... ppl noe i have problem... but i choose not to tell them so much.... after all i'm a person who like to keep things to myself.... i believe 1 day i can solve it all by myself.... i wan to do it myself....
juz came back from my physio.... well.. at 1st i tot it was nth... but i was so wrong... when i went thru the excercise.... then i realise how weak my ankle is... it's so weak till i cannot even use it to balance myself... and i have even lost my ability to balance.... haiz.... at the end of the course... the therapist help mi do some medical device massage... at 1st i feel nth.... but after a few min... i can feel this very spot of my ankle extremely pain when the device touch tt area.. when i ask the therapist... he say tt is where my ligament is... in fact the torn ligament.... and pain is like... wah... i cnanot take it sia... tears almost roll out.. it's so damn painful... the therapist also say tt mostly i have to go operation liao see my case so jialat... haiz... dunno lah... see at the end of the whole pyshio course how ba.... now i gonna pack my things and go to chalet le.. so i wont be blogging... guess it's a gd time to chill out myself ya? gonna go to the beach and enjoy while i can... k guys... take care ya? drink more water! the weather is bad... hate the weather... LOLX!!! miss ya all... for those who visit my blog.. those who dun.... also dunno wat i say wat... so y bother? LOLX!! ;P BuaIzzzzz ^-^/
yoz! back home again le... haha... juz had a boring day yesterday in camp... becos i'm the duty personnel.... have to stay in the office all the way... wah lau ehh... sian dao yao si... guess becos yesterday in office too long ba.... then the air con so cold... and wat's more i slept over-night in the office... with the air con.... then this morning wake up got running nose and sore throat... then now running a temperature laioz.... haha... and guess wat's the best part? tml is our chalet!! and i'm sick... dunno y everytime juz b4 i can go and enjoy.. i muz fall sick.. and lost all the fun in tt event... sianz... -.-" well.... for next week i'm gonna be so damn bz..... i'm flooded with lots of duties!!!! Monday... which is a public holiday i also kanna duty..... from mon-wed then rest on thurs then fri i duty again.... how great?! f**king shit! suan liao lah... maybe more duty also not bad lah.... bored mi to death also gd sia.... sian.... then today after camp took 852 home... was thinking so long nv take liaoz... today take 852 for fun.... end up wat happen? at bt timah my bus met with accident.... wah lau ehh.... then i was sleeping on the bus lor... then bloody hell tt E-brake cos mi to bang my head..... now still abit giddy giddy de... haha.... power feeling sia... the impact of the bang.... tml morning gonna go NUH for my physiotherapy liaoz.... 1st time sia... dunno wat is it like.... but i noe sure have to go thru some pain de lah.... after the physio... hopefully it ends early... then i gonna meet up with matthew and karen to go down to east coast to check in our chalet... tml wont be much ppl coming down... as the main event bbq is on sat.... so i tink i gonna use tml to really chill myself out... maybe go to the beach... find a shady area and juz sit down and relax... really wonder..... have i wake up?? or am i still half dreaming away.... i cant carry on tt way..... ppl dun appriciate mi... i shouldn't still be like a idiot and hang arnd like tt... enuff is enuff.... ppl dun listen to wat i say... i shall stop saying... i shall stop appearing... since ppl dun need mi.... i should go... they juz sux! i can onli have myself and none other body else... i shall nv trust any1 or put hope on any1 again... it's true tt human are out to disappoint another human... i totally agree with tt phrase Yun Hui once tell mi.... thankz for ur this golden sentence... it really set mi awake.. thankz... i shall lead the life of my own onli... juz mi myself and i.... so tt nobody else will ever hurt mi agian... all human sux! including myself.... we're juz a pitiful load....
ikt's tuesday..... i'm finally back to my sec home Khatib camp le... went back to camp at 7+ in the morning.... the feeling i have once i step into the camp was..... "ahhhh my home.... how i missed u...." LOLX crazy rite? went up to my office... sign my book in book out book.... then went up to bunk... was rather shock... they seem to start renovating the bunk area already... saw quite a few buks empty and messy.. cos they gonna tear down everything to renovate it.. went into my bunk.. at tt moment i feel s rush of lonliness in the bunk.. we have a 8 men bunk... but onli 3 bed got mattress.. in cluding mine lah... cos the others all clearing leave and off liaoz... cos they gonna ORD liaoz le... haiz... get changed to my uniform... went down and saw my officers.... feel quite welcome... they asked mi how is my course.. i told them still ok lah... learnt alot of useless stuff as my unit dun need most of the info they taught mi.... but feel so happy when my staff sgt tapped my shoulder and say... "ok lah... at least u have go thru the course and come back le" juz a simple action and a sentence of words really warm my heart.... i feel so happy back there.... caught up with quite a few of my frens and officers over there... then book out go panjang plaza walk walk.. visit my god sister in panjang plaza see how is she doing in the new working environment... seems like she dun quite really happy in there... then came back home rest awhile.... fall asleep unknowingly.... woke up at 7+... bath and went out to meet Nick at JP had a few games... then came back le... tml cannot book out... got duty... haiz.... guess tt's all ba... oh ya... i'm involve in this year's NDP... haha... and this yr i'm involve in the overseas training le... heard tt this yr cut down alot of oversea training... so this yr onli got the training at Aussie.....and my name is confirm already.. haha... i'm a trained signaller le... haha... the cough is getting from bad to worse day by day..... even the hand also keep shivering for nth i also dunno y.... haiz... wat is wrong with mi??? when will my down period be gone??
another day has juz pass by..... how shall i start? let's start from yesterday nite ba.... meet up with Johnny at Lot1 at arnd 9:30p.m bought some food... make it fast.. then chiong back to camp.... reach the camp b4 10p.m heng ar.... actually late also nvm de... went up.... ate our food..... book in... then lie on bed playing with my gameboy... and chit chat with johnny... chat till quite late... i sleep at almost 4a.m in the morning..... 5:30a.m i was been woke up by my bunkmate... cos it's time to fall it.. faster og wash up all these... went downstairs..... our guys do the morning exercise... then went to cookhouse for breakfast.... juz took our bread onli.... it started to rain heavily.... so damn heavily... even the cookhouse almost got flooded... sat in the cookhouse for arnd 30mns... see the rain slightly smaller le.... we ran all the way back to our building.... so tiring... cos my ankle cannot take it... but nvm lah... rather then get drenched.... went up to bunk.. dry ourselves.... then feel so sleepy... so went to sleep again... till 8:30 get changed into No.4 then go down to wait for course debrief.... then out Course Commander presented us the cert of completion of course.... then went back slack again... in the noon do some moving of tables and chairs to the new building.... then went back to bunk do 1 last final area cleaning and finally book out le... ask my uncle to drive mi back..as the bag is really too heavy and my leg cannot take it...reach home... rest awhile... went down to JP to meet up with johnny nick and CR... played game.. then chat at mac till 11p.m after tt took bus home.... tt's all for today ba... kinda naggy hor... haha... tml gonna book in le..... will i wake up tml??
haiz.... it's sunday again... gonna book in back to camp le... have been wasting my whole day at home.... doing nothing at all..... stupidly waiting beside the phone..... juz for a sms or a call...... haha... but sadly.... no call or sms were received..... sad.... suan le..... the whole world has forgotten mi lehz.... i onli have mi and myself.... and nobody else.... not i wan to like tt... but it's been proven..... times and times again... so i dun tink there's anything wrong if i were to say i onli have mi and myself in this world... i dun think i'm in any wrong also.... cos till now nobody can prove mi wrong yet... so i assume as wat i think is rite... well... fine..... i'm goin out le... for alot of my coursemate... it's gonna be a very happy day... but for mi... i have no reaction..... it's juz like any other days... except tml got cert presentation and goin back to my own camp onli... guess i'll blog till here ba... guess i go le...
wat a sat i have.... morning come back home from crc... didnt sleep a wink...then use the com till arnd 11+ xian han say wan to go suntec with mi wan. in the end he sleep until nv pick up his phone... so i went down alone.. had a lot of game over there... win those bastard who try to go by the hard way to win mi.. haah sore loser... u all are no match to mi k?! then went down to esplanade there to sit at the stone s there.... enjoy the breeze and tink le alot alot.... as for wat i tink i dun tink i gonna type.... too much le... then took bus 77 back... on the bus met PeiFen and her cousin.. my ite classmate's gf lah... didnt tok much to her.... then fall asleep in bus le.. sleep until reach batok... then slowly walk back home... reach home had my dinner... and watch tv... didnt really eat much... as i got sore throat.... weather too bad plus i didnt drink enuf water... juz receive a sms from my god-daughter... i dunno y muz she be so stupid... say wan to be alone... and wanna be a bitch who every1 will hate her... for wat?! juz for tt fucker u break with? u say no.. but i noe it is becos of him... he is the wan who deserve to die ok? not u ok? y push the damn fault all to urself... u wan to do this to urself... i will do something more mean to him! u better wake up ur idea.... u're no bitch ok? he is the bastard! u dun wan to wake up ur idea? i'll help u! i juz dun wan to see ppl arnd mi like tt... cos u all are diff from mi! dun try to be funny k? i'll make sure the wan who cause it to suffer double of wat u have made urself go thru.... dun be stupid lah~!
well....... i'm back.... after staying in camp for 1 week.... have been having headache recently.... also dunno wat to blog too.... haiz..... hand has been trembling uncontrollably.... i also dunno y... course finishing le.... this week start to pack things le.... goin to go back to camp le... next monday juz go back get my cert onli... haha stupid sia... this kind of course also got cert de.... i didnt do very well i muz say... i got an overall of B- grade sia... haiz.... dunno lah... now at crc playing games with my camp mate.... dun feel like playing le... head very pain.... ~>_<~
juz back from my uncle house.... sian de yao si.... wat a weekend.... really didnt do anything.... wasted my sunday... but then i also not in any mood for anythings lah... today my cousin so damn ke lian.... keep showing temper when we go her house... she da bian on her diper... then quite smelly also lah.. haha then she not happy... of cos she wont be happy lah.. who will be happy when ur da bian keep touching ur butt rite?? but when her dad wanna change her pamper she dun wan sia.... keep struggling.. cos she wan to get out of the room and go outside and play.... haiz.. dunno wat is she tinking sia... got da bian in pamper wan to make noise... wan to change for her she die die wan to play..... ma fan de yao si.... but rather cute in some way lah... haha... then now at home nth to do again... gonna book in back camp le... haiz... this week got another 2 more EX.... but this is the last week of course le lah... let's get it done and relax ba.... haiz.... at 1st i still tot 6weeks is hell man for goin course... but turn out rather ok for mi... thou i failed 1 test...guess will retest this week ba.... ah bo no chance le mah.... hope can do it ba... haiz.... the siansation is still with mi till now... cant wait for this mths 20th to come... can go for sec sch class chalet... look forward for it to come soon... i goin to explode le lah!!!! argh~!~!~! feng diao feng diao.... stress up...... somebody save mi~~~~ =(
hmmmm........ wat a sunday i've had..... i've actually stay at home the whole day sia..... early morning wake up..... the 1st thing tt i hear is the sound of the rain hitting against my window.... the sound feel so peaceful....... get up and open the window and look out the window.... the feeling of seeing this heavy rain in the morning really can set in some peace into my mind.... i also dunno i like tt stared outside how long.... then finally went out to brush up.... had fried bee hoon for breakfast.... after tt sit down play my pristontale... no much mood to play also... juz sit in front of the com and dream..... haha... until 12+ help up in mopping the floor.... then went into my room and play my gameboy.... it's like time seems to pass so slowly.... slow till i also dunno how to discribe.... had instant noodle for lunch again... same as yesterday.... cos mum nv cook... then went back to my room and rot again till now... haiz.... the headache is back again... i didnt do anything also got headache... atl east today i can feel abit of peace inside ba...for the past few days... i juz feel so vex.... haiz.... hope all this will get over soon ba....
haiz... i'm back in here again..... guess i'm at my extreme le ba.... the feeling of extreme downess...... so down so down..... haha.... ya... karma... i juz learnt wat is karma..... and i believe this is karma... haha.... hatred is back again.... but not on others anymore... haha..... i'm hating myself now..... cool man.... ya... i'm destroying myself.... so well said.... i wish i could.... anyway it doesnt make any diff i guess......... juz now went to teck whye to find my fren.... along the way.... i feel tt everything arnd mi seems to be so strange for mi.... i dun remember seeing all these buildings arnd mi.... everybody face seems to be so cold and lifeless.... keep seeing somthing is arnd mi.... but it always disappear b4 i can see it clearly.... wat is it?? i really wonder... wat does it wan? i dunno... the feeling of writing everything down doesnt seems to make mi feel any better... but at least this is the onli way i can vent it all out ba.... the willingness to carry on living is getting weaker day by day.... i'm exhausted... too exhausted to carry on.... i wanted so much to carry on juz a few weeks ago... but now......... it's all perish.... juz like a kid who is builing a sandcastle by the beach.... juz when he is goin to finish le... then somebody juz step on it.... the feeling of tt disappointment can u feel it? but nvm... tt kid try to rebuild it again..... but when it's goin to finish.... again..... somebody step on it again.... the disappointment is double then juz now... and now... he's given up.... he dun wanna build anymore... my feeling is the same as tt small boy...... can u all understand?? i dunno... cos it seems to mi nobody cares anyway... cos it's KARMA!! HAHAHAHA!!!! i'm losing my sense.... when will i totally lose it i also dunno..... all i noe is..... i'm at my very limit already.............. gonna explode anytime.....
haiz... back from camp le.... nowadays really juz feel like couping myself up in camp jiu hao le.... haiz..... things seems to have turn it's back on mi...... everything juz went so so so so so wrong..... haiz....... thursday went to NUH for my medical appointment..... was very nervous b4 i see the doc..... cos i dun wan to hear the news i dun wanna hear...... but well... it still happens...... yes... some of them might be so happy huh........ cool rite?? my lingerment have been confirm liaoz... it's torn..... haha.. i tot it'll nv happens on mi... but i was so wrong... it's torn..... now i have to wait to go for physiotherapy.... i noe it wont heals my lingerment.... it will onli make mi feels better tt's all...... the doc say if the physio cant works.... i have to go for operation..... haiz....... y muz these happen to mi??? argh~!~! i deserve it ba...... wanan find some1 to tok to also so hard.... everybody is so busy..... ya... everbody..... i cannot find a person to tok... not even a single soul.... all i have is this bloggy..... to type out all my sadness..... well.... nobody cares anyway..... suan le..... type so much also no use..... it's true i have to be loner ya? it's my fate..... i surrender to it..... haiz.........
WTF IS THIS!!!!! chao chee bye!!!! wat has it got to do with mi when my bro always dun concentrate on his studies????? WAT HAS IT GOT TO DO WITH MI!!!!! wat do u mean by he always chat online is i influence wan??? wtf?!?!?! so wat if i play game...... so wat if i always go online till late nite??? go online till late nite meaning i doing something illegal.... wat kind of damn fuck shit theory is this?! fine! by all mean keep the damn modem! i'll buy my own! CHEE BYE!!! u're pushing mi to my limit laioz..... u're forcing mi to feel tt i shouldnt come back to this house agian.... nvm... fine.... now i dun have the ability....... after my NS i'll MOVE OUT OF THIS DAMN HOUSE!!!! u say i always say onli... i'll PROOF TO U THIS TIME! till the day u die is ur fucking own business! u die u die lah... i dun give a damn shit... neither will i shed a tear or even hold the joss-stick for u OLD MAN! die for all i care.... i noe u health is geting worse... i dun wan to annoy u... but now is U who come and step on mi!! i got no father like u man! i hate myself!! y do i have a father like u! y do u have to noe my mum?! y does my mum let u FUCK her last time! all this is such a damn grave mistake god have done! it's all wrong man!!!!! FUCKING WRONG!!!! I CURSE U TO DEATH! DIE TML WHEN U DRIVE!!! DIE!!!!!!!!!!
haiz... juz come back from YG bowling.... quite a fun wan.... i bowl like sai anyway.... juz play play onli lah... took photo with my god daughter.... haha... then went to the void deck beside panjang plaza to celebrate Yao Cai's birthday.... then we went back home le..... dunno y... juz now feel so bored... so i went blog hopping... looking arnd.... dunno y.. juz click to her bloggy.... looking at her post.... see wat she had been doing recently... she seems to be so much more happier now compare to last time...ya i noe.. i'm juz a lousy bf... suan le.... dunno y... as i read her blog... i juz feel so sad.... so much so much always flash back in my head..... wat's wrong with mi?? i dunno... haiz... life juz so sux....