haiz... i'm back in here again..... guess i'm at my extreme le ba.... the feeling of extreme downess...... so down so down..... haha.... ya... karma... i juz learnt wat is karma..... and i believe this is karma... haha.... hatred is back again.... but not on others anymore... haha..... i'm hating myself now..... cool man.... ya... i'm destroying myself.... so well said.... i wish i could.... anyway it doesnt make any diff i guess......... juz now went to teck whye to find my fren.... along the way.... i feel tt everything arnd mi seems to be so strange for mi.... i dun remember seeing all these buildings arnd mi.... everybody face seems to be so cold and lifeless.... keep seeing somthing is arnd mi.... but it always disappear b4 i can see it clearly.... wat is it?? i really wonder... wat does it wan? i dunno... the feeling of writing everything down doesnt seems to make mi feel any better... but at least this is the onli way i can vent it all out ba.... the willingness to carry on living is getting weaker day by day.... i'm exhausted... too exhausted to carry on.... i wanted so much to carry on juz a few weeks ago... but now......... it's all perish.... juz like a kid who is builing a sandcastle by the beach.... juz when he is goin to finish le... then somebody juz step on it.... the feeling of tt disappointment can u feel it? but nvm... tt kid try to rebuild it again..... but when it's goin to finish.... again..... somebody step on it again.... the disappointment is double then juz now... and now... he's given up.... he dun wanna build anymore... my feeling is the same as tt small boy...... can u all understand?? i dunno... cos it seems to mi nobody cares anyway... cos it's KARMA!! HAHAHAHA!!!! i'm losing my sense.... when will i totally lose it i also dunno..... all i noe is..... i'm at my very limit already.............. gonna explode anytime.....