here i am to blog again... today's gonna have a super long entry i guess... today i've been thinking alot again... alot of things flashes in my mind... 1st... i was on this very very old Trans bus... then i was sitting in this a considered high seat in the bus... then it brings mi back to the time when i was so small tt if i sit on the normal seat.. i cannot see the things outside... then i'll always drag my grandma to sit on the higher seat of the bus juz to see the things outside... haha... then as the journy goes on... things during my course flashes my mind... and my this fren... named Timonthy appear... he's a real funny guy in the course... who nv fails to brighten all our days with all his funny jokes and move... but the sad thing is... after the course... he's being posted for overseas posting for 1 yr... it may be good.. it may be bad.. depending on how he sees it ba... but till now i still dunno is he still in sg or has he already been posted to overseas... lastly this comes to my mind... at the age of 22... wat could ppl at my this age had achieve? a stable job? stable income... car? or maybe even preparing to get married... ya i believe it's all possible... rather than having a life like mi now... still serving in the army... to ppl outside they'll still tink... u're not stable enuff... pratically u're useless... cos of wat? no stable job... no income... cos in army u're juz drawing allowance.. not salary... dun even tink abt cars... go play arcade car game more like it... getting married? DREAM ON! ppl are realistic.. u cannot provide them anything.. which gal with the rite mind will wan to follow u when she can have a guy with all these things like job... car... NO WAY a gal will wan to be with u if she can choose... man are all selfish... nv blame the gal if she choose to be with a f*ck up guy instead of u... cos he got the job and car... and u? u got nth... eat urself man! sorry if i offended anybody... this is my blog.. i juz type wat i have inside... but no worry... u ppl outside can go ahead and look down on mi... laugh at mi.... condemn mi... i dun care... one day.... all of u will regret... or maybe worse.. u may not even get to see mi arnd anymore... i noe wat i wan to do... wat i have to do... anyway... the life noe... totally SUCK! guess tt's abt all i wan to say ba... got no wish to write wat i've been doing today... cos who cares? as long as i'm still alive it's enuff... isnt it? ya i tink so...
hmmmm another day has past..... tml goin for my physiotheraphy le... after tt i goin back to camp le... haiz.... had been feeling rather down all these while.... i also dunno wat's wrong with mi too... today is such a cold day.... had been raining the whole day.... it's cooling i'll say... i always love this weather alot... but today is special... it's a cold and yet lonely day for mi... been at home and rot... watch tv... listen to songs.... trying to find ppl to chat also.... but to no valid of cos... ppl are all bz... with sch... or with work... the feeling of lonliness nv failed to get mi at times like this.... today keep sleeping and sleeping... later tonite gonna had a hard time trying to sleep also le.... haiz... now dunno wat to blog also... oh ya... i've manage to get my blog's mp3 to play again le... i love this song alot... hope u ppl will like it too.... ^^ take care all... lonliness is calling for mi again le....
haiz.... so long nv blog again le... guess nobody will read also lah... i also dunno i blog for wat too.... haiz.... well.... juz blog lor since i'm here already... haiz... actually i also got nth to blog too.... maybe i'll juz blog down wat feeling i am having now.... i feel so small... so powerless... no matter how hard i try to do 1 thing... i can nv succeed... ya... nv.... i feel demoralised... got no motivation to carry on also.... y is it so hard to get tt something when u noe it so well tt u will need it and treasure it.... but yet... it still cannot be urs... it's neither hard nor easy to get it... the key to success is in the hand of it... but too bad... it dunno how to make a decision... haiz... i've tried and tried and tried... guess i'm juz not gd enuff ba... tt's y i cannot get it yet... but i'll keep on trying... i dun tink tt i'm wasting my time...
haiz.... back from NUH le..... sad sia... today went down for appointment... my appointment was 3:25p.m..... i reach on time.. yet then let mi wait and wait until 4:20p.m then my turn... went in to see the doc... he straight away ask mi... wan to operation anot? i was like... O_O!! so jialat meh?? then he say... actually can dun need..... scares mi... basket.... then ask mi to continue physiotherapy for another 3 more mths... then he gonna downgrade mi le... haiz... i dun ahve a choice.... it's a muz to downgrade... then after tt come back home laioz... rot till now... later gonna go back camp sia... haiz.... dunno y i still feel so tired... damn exhausted... dunno wat's wrong sia.... this kind of tired feeling is so scary... i feel as if i'm losing my energy more and more each day... having so much trouble and puzzle inside mi.... haiz....
hmmmmmm...... almost 10 days nv blog le wor... haiz.... been quite bz recently with camp shifting and stuff... haiz.. dun wanna tok abt camp lah.... juz wanna tok abt happy happening ba... haha.... thursday juz went down to kallang river for a dragonboat competition... haha... my 1st time riding dragonboat somemore... it's a really nice experience... thou i keep hitting my fingers by the paddle and the gunrail.. abit blue black.. but it's fun! at least we got 2nd... haha... hmmm dunno y i feel so blank now.... izzit becos too long no blog le?? dunno leh... suddenlyl ost of words to type... haha... oh ya... this morning i saw our CR at batok mrt station.. hmmm.... tt time i was still quite sleepy... i tot i see wrong person sia... cos he was walking with a gal huh.... walking together nvm... holding hands somemore wor!!! haha... but congrates to him lah hor.... after so long... he finally found his "chun tian" again le... haha... he cnanot come into my blog so i type he also dunno... haha... then went down to PL house to help her do her survey.... quite easy lah... took mi less than half an hour... then come back home le... ppl need to study for exam.. dun wan to bother ppl.. now feeling so sleepy sia... gonna go sleep le.. tonite goin to tian hui for da zong ban.... *YaWnZzZz* i feel so exhausted... wat's wrong with mi??
hmmmm i so long nv blog again liao ar?? haha... bo bian... been quite bz in camp with all the weird weird stuff... and plus i'm SICK!! yea... SICK again! Sheesh.... this morning wake up i'm sneezing away again.... bth... now my nose feel so terrible... but nvm la.... suan liaoz... let mi see wat else did i do for this week... actually also nth much lah... cos i also cant really remember liao.... keke... my memory is getting from bad to worse... oh.. ya... my sony ericsson is spoilt!!! goddamnit!!! but nvm... spoilt spoilt lor... hack lah... haha... hmmm then last nite where was i...... oh i was at yishun at 1st... meet up with PL.... ppl bz with coming exam sia... then after reading so long she juz ask mi... "ze me ban?" keep asking the same question.... like siao cha bo... haha... then i also ki siao with her lah... i go approach ppl ask the same question she ask mi... haha..... crazy sia... then my poor finger kana bite... now blue black liaoz lah.... ARGH~! as for today still dunno wat to do lehz... haiz.... wat a boring plus sick day... guys do take care man... the weather is F**k up.... drink up or drop out... haha... see this from a poster in my camp de... reallym uz drink alot of water... or else u'll drop out man... keke... ok lah... today's blog is mainly rubbish onli... haha... :P
hmmm hi guys.... i'm back from kuantan... well well... wat can i say abt this trip.... all i can say is... it SUX!! 1st time i go M'sia and come back saying it sux.... ok 1st... on friday nite we took the bus to the custom... the bus is said to be leaving batok at 10:30p.m but the bus waited until 11 then come... den nvm... when we reach the custom and board the bus.. we all have a seat lah... then it's like those Grassland the bus lah... big big chair.... but f**k up... esp the last row... cos we took the last row with mi bro and cousin.. at nite sleep acnnot even stretch my leg out at all.. cos the chair in front is in my way... argh~! so had a damn bad sleep tt nite... then the next day morning... early morning... bring us go climb hill to see the sleeping buddha... nice scenery... but i sprained my left ankle... will upload pic i taken in kuantan to my photo album soon... then next we went to this so called ruin village... walk on this very old bridge... used mainly robe and planks onli to tie on the 2 end wan... not very shaky.. but dunno y ppl seems to be very scare... -.-" then till noon reach a temple... they go pray lah... i nv.. i stay in bus and slp.. cos not enuff slp mah... waited till noon 3+ then can check in hotel... stayed at this hotel called Swissgarden... not bad... tink it's a 5 star hotel.. then we're paired up to go to each room lor... but sadly.. i'm the odd 1 out... but nvm lah.. cos i got a queen sized bed room all for myself.. LOLX!! shoik sia... big bathtub big bed... big room.. keke... then at nite went to fou tang... watch performance.. no comments on it... then at nite my bro and 2 other frens came to my room watch tv and ate pizza... haha..1 pizza is 21rm which is arnd s$10+ nia... somemore is large pizza.. keke.. on sun morning... went to have buffet breakfast... rather normal wan.. not very nice also... :/ then took some group photo by the beach... the beach is nice... very fine and shiny sand... but water not very clear... but it's alot more better than sg... after we check out at 11+ we board on our bus and went down to batu bahat tink is like tt spell ba... went to another fou tang... then at nite had dinner at a veg restuarant.. then come back sg liaoz... bloody hell along the way got traffic jam lah... accident lah... -.-" m'sia road really cannot make it... then all this stupid things drag our time sia... and we arnd 11.20pm then reach sg.. so tired and boring trip... kaoz... i swear tt i wont go with them anymore man... k lah.. tt's abt all wait till i've uplaoded the pic i'll let u all noe again... gtg to slp laioz.. ah bo tml cannot wake up in time to book in... gdnite all... *YaWnZzz*