haiz.... so long nv blog again le... guess nobody will read also lah... i also dunno i blog for wat too.... haiz.... well.... juz blog lor since i'm here already... haiz... actually i also got nth to blog too.... maybe i'll juz blog down wat feeling i am having now.... i feel so small... so powerless... no matter how hard i try to do 1 thing... i can nv succeed... ya... nv.... i feel demoralised... got no motivation to carry on also.... y is it so hard to get tt something when u noe it so well tt u will need it and treasure it.... but yet... it still cannot be urs... it's neither hard nor easy to get it... the key to success is in the hand of it... but too bad... it dunno how to make a decision... haiz... i've tried and tried and tried... guess i'm juz not gd enuff ba... tt's y i cannot get it yet... but i'll keep on trying... i dun tink tt i'm wasting my time...

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