hmmm.... wat a morning... haha... today is monday... ppl should be working... but here i am blogging away... cos i'm on half day leave today.... i used my leave instead of my off... for wat sia? it's for the chalet yesterday lah... by rite today nobody can off de... cos of the CO parade... *CO= Commanding Officer* so in order to get out i have to use leave... cos nobody can stop u from taking leave... so guys... use ur leave wisely... it will come in handy in times de... haha... well... this morning wake up didnt really feel well... but i'm gonna keep quiet abt it... let ppl noe for wat? haha... this morning had bread for breakfast... it's damn dry man... eat until wan to die... after tt went out to make phone call... wanna find some1 to tok to also cant sia... ppl are either sleeping, working, studying or nv on phone... haiz... but nvm lah... used to it liao... it's always at such times i cannot find a single soul de... hmmm really wonder where all of them go... do they have 6th sense knowing tt i gonna find them then they'll make themselves damn bz? or izzit i'm juz too free... haiya... dunno lah... juz fuck it lah... muz really learn to adopt the fuck it attitude liaoz... take everything so hard is nv gd for mi... last nite i still toking abt myself been too gd always think for others onli.... haha... tink i also tink too far liao hor... even tink to the part where my future family life... haha... gf also dun have... still tink so far... siao ehh lehz... ppl used to tell mi tt gals like guys who noe how to plan for their future... hey... it's BULLSHIT man! who gives a damn? haha... dun be stupid lah guys... this way nv work out de... plan and plan and plan for wat?? plan too much will kill alot of brain cells... then end up dying at young age like mi... better dun hor... can play juz play arnd lah... nowadays is diff from the past liao lor... who cares abt ur planning... ppl now onli noe how to see wat u have and wat u possess onli... u tell ppl ur plan... they will onli go... "ohh..." "wah..." after tt nobody will care... so trust mi... dun plan... juz play along with watever u have... cos nothing lives forever man... it's true and i believe... for example huh... this Mr A pass away laioz... ppl cry for him like no tml.... finally he's been buried... for the 1st few yrs... ppl who will still moan over his death will be like onli 20%? everyyear on his death anniversary ppl will go and pay their respect... another few yrs pass... how many ppl will still pay their respect for him? maybe 10%? then again... a few yrs pass... u will see tt nobody will even pay their respect to him... his forgotten.... then look at his tomb... filled with wild grasses growing on it... end up who is the wan clearing those grasses for him? those ah neh working there lor... how sad it is rite? so it's really no use tinking so much... cos 1 day... u and mi will all be forgotten... who the hell will wan to remember u?? siao... waste of brain memory ar... haha... k lah... seems like my blog is kinda weird huh... but guys... pls scroll down from my tagboard there... and u'll understand y... cos tt's my blogging characteristic... sian... i always feel so left out... Qiwei... Matthew... where are u guys... i really need u guys... i feel down and broken... 1st time blog till i feel like crying... i need u guys alot... btw we're not gays... we're juz very gd buddies for yrs... i miss our days together having fun and doing all the cock things together... pls come back to mi... i can take it no more.... i feel so damn condemn... onli u guys nv failed to give mi the warmth i needed the most... but too bad u guys nv read m blog... if u guys do... pls respond to my call... *broken*