hmmm... finally back home le... this few weeks kind busy... haha... busy with wat? play my midnight maximun tune... well.. finally... after so long... i getting really near to my final goal le... the goal of achieving 999 stars.... haha... so far now i got 910 le... i onli have 89 more to go.. haha... k lah... nth to hao lian abt de lah... it's juz a game onli wat... to most ppl is like this lah... but to mi... 999 stars is really a long way.. after i got this 999th stars... i gonna seal up my kazer le... it got too much enemies outside... dunno y... ppl juz hate my car... haiz... well enuff of game... haha.... today had a very interesting chat with 1 of my campmate... we were chatting abt the gals in sg... haha... k lah i noe lah.. we guys can be damn "ba gong" also.. haha... then he say... he's not gonna find a gf at all.. he wanna wait till he's successful liao... then gals will automatically flock to him... i told him... well.. it's quite true in sg... if u r successful... u dun have to worry abt gals.. cos gals will juz flock to u and stick to u like ultra super glue... haha... but after tt i ask him.... have u ever tink abt this point... these glas who flock to u is becos they really like u? or becos they like the shiny card with a word called VISA or those colourful paper with Yusof Ishak face on it? then he like -.-" sian diaoz... haha... then he ask mi.... then wat abt mi? i told him... well.... if i would choose... of cos i'll prefer a gal who's with mi when i have nothing.... totally zero till the day i'm successful.... these type of gals are the gals tt u can be with... dunno y lah.. no offense... i juz feel tt gals who will come to u becos u r damn filthy rich.... they're juz vain.... 1 day if u juz went broke overnight.... then she'll juz leave u... not even saying goodbye.... then wat's the use? it's like using money to keep a women by ur side... haha... but anyway.. this is juz my point of view onli lah.... not everybody will agreed on my points de.. haha... cos as usual lah hor.. my view is always diff from others... haha... maybe nowadays life is like ttba... got money got status... u got women.... no money no status... dog see u also spit salivia.... haha.... but for mi i also dun really care lah.... cos i noe where i am heading to... wat i'll be doin in future... i may still be in sg.. i may not be in sg.... but anyway... it's my path ba... now see alot of my frens getting married... engage... some even got children le.. haha... juz fee tt... they're really fast man.... haha... it's either they're fast or i'm slow ba... haha... but nvm... i like it slow and steady... juz let nature take it course lor... if it's bound to come... it'll come de... no point forcing... tt's y thru all this i learn... i've learn to let things come and go... certain things juz have to go... thou certain things hurts alot when u noe u're losing it.... but u still have to let it go.. cos u noe u can nv hold it back... the more u tried to hold it back.. the faster u'll lose it... and tt's true... cos i've gone thru such feeling... it's nv gd to have such feeling.. but learn... every man learn thru falling... let it fall with a loud THUD! and when u get up... u'll learn... haha.... my blog is becoming more like a space for mi to write wat i have inside my this puny bird brain... to most ppl all these are juz nonsense ba... got no value de... haha.... k lah... tink i gtg liaoz.... haiz... jay's Ai wo bei Zhuo juz make my mood so damn down... haiz..... next week is my range le... dunno can get marksman anot... i totally got no faith already.... too much... too much has happen... i'm so tired... if tonite i like this sleep le and nv wake up again... how would ppl arnd mi feel? happy or sad? haha.... toking nonsense agai... haha... *SiGhZ*
hmmm it's been some time since i last blog le ba... well... today actually also got nth much to blog also... too lazy to blog down wat happen in the week... juz hang up the phone not long ago.... really wonder... wat do ppl see mi in their eyes? someone who they'll onli find when they feel like it? wat position do i hold in everybody's eyes? let mi tell u guy wat i feel ba... deep down in my heart... i feel tt ppl are onli looking for mi when they feel like it... when they dun feel like it.. i dun even exist in their head... when somebody or something is unfair to them... they'll find mi... yea and i listen... i share their problem... i do have my own problems ar... y didnt anybody ever ask mi? "hey... dun u have problems too?" if some1 ever do ask tt.... i can give tt person a 3days 3nite story liao... haha... but anyway... suan liaoz... cos i'm used to it liaoz... hasn't been feeling well recently... keep falling sick... somemore not juz 1 sickness... it comes in package wan... a few sickness together... haiz... bad yr... bad mths.... everything juz seem to be so utterly wrong.. wonder how long can i still take all this bullshit.... i'm goin doen soon man... soon...