haiz.... wat a day... spend the whole day in office... got tons of extras to finish b4 i can ord in peace... today went out to meet PL... i muz say i'm really happy to see her... took 169 with her to yishun... she bought dinner for her sis... after tt i went up to her house... and onli today den i realise tt her sis always waited for mi to leave liao den eat her meal de... i also dunno y... partly i also noe she dun like mi... haiz... maybe i'm really tt unwelcome to her ba...but i muz admit... it's my fault to step into their house in the 1st place... upon knowing tt her sis will onli eat when i'm off... i left immediately... at tt point... really got the feeling like kanna chase out... haha... but i cant still stay there when i noe ppl havent had their meal and is waiting for mi to leave then eat mah... actually today also got no plan of goin anywhere de... but unexpected stuff do happens wat... at that moment i feel so lost... dunno where to go... nobody to look for.... so i went down to sun plaza... as usual... spend some money played my fav game... i lost my very 1st game... haiz... wat a bad start... but after tt i did win back... and tt's another 30+ stars for her... even p till today i'm still trying to get 3999 stars for her... it's not easy i muz say... and i'm really sux in tt game... if 1 day i really get 3999 stars le... will she still be there to see it? got the feeling i gonna lose her anytime... i noe tt it's true tt we've really drifted apart... but i'm still trying to get things back to where it belong... sorry for disappointing u so many times... even when i'm blogging now i can feel the pain inside... tt's so painful tt no words can describe how it feels... all i can onli say is... i'm sorry... sorry for all the pain i brought upon u... but pls believe mi... some things really nv change at all b4 and after i went india... :(

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