50hrs had pass... still there's no news of her... i goin crazy... really goin crazy soon... diff ppl tell mi diff things... some say... i muz wait for her... vice versa also got ppl say... i shouldnt wait.. maybe she already got some1 else... haiz.. i dunno how lah! FAN ARH!!!! went down to esplanade to work last nite... saw my gan mei YT and her bf. yea... they look loving... give my blessing to them... at least they are so much better than mi. heard her say the story of my gd buddy CR. tt his gf zao sai him. the silly ass still went down to sch to look for her. but end up onli see her holding the hand of another guy. FUCK MAN! BITCH! sianz~ went back home at aro 11 from Clarke QUay... luckily got my bao bei mei xiao hui to keep mi acc. reach home do nth and rot. yea rotting... hoping to see something from her.but still... haiz... chest had been hurting almost every moment. i breath in it hurts. like telling mi stop breathing then it wont hurts... haha.. how i wish i could. "where are u my baby?" i can take it no more... ARRGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

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