back from ps... went to play lan with Rainy and her bf chuan... it was suppose to be a chance for mi to relieve the stress i have within mi... but everything starts to turn out so damn wrong not long after i reach there... i received the sms from her... we exchanged 3 sms... and everything between us had come to an end... i was so stun till i dunno wat i should do... i really dun understand... no reason no nothing... and it's over juz like this... i wanted to noe y... but she wont reply mi nor answer my call... went into audition and played with serena... this is the 1st time i playd so well when my mood is so suck up.. initially was well... after tt i start to miss... cos my vision become blur... how to see clearly when there is tears in ur eyes? i dunno y... it juz hurts... hurts so much tt i cried.. i cried over her... wo bu gan xin... if she've fallen for some1 else... y not juz tell mi straight? rather than end this in such manner... i hate it... but luckily nobodyu noe tt i cried... after tt mi and chuan went to ps to play maximum tune... i know... i suck up in the game... i bang everywhere... along the way home... i'm glad tt Z called mi to chat with mi... muz thankz her for trying to console mi... even now i still feel so upset over her... i dunno how long it will take for mi to get over her... i noe i love her so... but she nv noe how much i have put in for her... how much i have tried all juz for her... but now... it's all down into the drain... i hate this... i really hate this... ARGH~!

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