back to blog again... had some fun goin out with Z. haha... so sry tt i got really bad headache... reach home... saw my bro alone in the room with lights off... he is not slping... i knew something was wrong.... it was all becos of my dad again... it's always him who affect every1's mood. he tink he is the biggest in the god damn fmaily? fuck u understand?! we are no longer small kids to let u anyhow scold again... i noe in the whole family he onli see mi bu shuang... bu shuang say lah... tell mi straight in the face... u always wan mi to shift out rite? fine... give mi 1-2 mths time.. i will shift out. once i shift out. i wont fucking care wat happens to u... be it u're dead... injured.. sick..... i wont care... u treat mi like shit... i will treat u worse than shit! becos of mum i stay in here... but now u wan to push ur limit further... i will show u wat i can do... ppl wan to say i bu siao i also dun care.. cos nobody noe how u have treated mi... u say u treat mi as dead wat rite? i treat u as dead as well... i wont even bother to attend ur fucking funeral. and i damn fucking hate myself becos of U! becos i am born becos of U! U dirtied my body... my mind... my soul... my everything! y didnt u all juz abort mi 24yrs ago?! maybe u will feel better... and i will surely feel alot more better! i rather not be born than to feel so insulted by U! i need somebody who i can really trust and lean on to.... but it's nv possible... haiz... how i wish later i go slp laioz.. den i wont wake up anymore... relieve mi from all this shit.. and u will be god damn happy also! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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