hmmm.. its been really like years since last post... well... years had past. things have changed. ppl have changed... as for mi... yes i've changed too... i've fucked up my life. im staying alone outside at a rented room outside. a 100% singaporean. living a life like a foreigner. every mth have to cut cpf and pay rental for room. as for wat has happened. i've no wish to talk abt it. all i can say... i regret all the shit that i've done. i know its too late to even change a single thing now. i affected so many ppls life. esp my very own family. im truly sorry. but i dont have to courage to even go up to them and say sorry. i noe my sorry doesnt even mean a thing to them neither can it change a single thing. all i can do now is pick myself up again. re-live my life. its not a simple path. but i have to walk thru it. i have so much shit to clear juz becos of my own selfishness and greed.seriously post up to here kinda jam alr. its so messy up in my head suddenly. i wish all the ppl that i've let down will have a much more peaceful and enjoyable life. i dont noe when we will see each other again or will we even see each other again. i do miss all of u. but i juz cant let things go back to the way it is... tears are flooding my fuck up small eyes now... think i better stop... haiz...

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